I awoke last night. He was calling my name
I want to know, he said, whose to blame?
Where were you? You heard my cries
Tell me the truth. Tell me no lies
I heard you scream throughout the night
And beg to die by the day’s first light
I wanted to come, as did we all
Please understand, it wasn’t our call
Not your call? They beat me to death
I begged for mercy with my dying breath
I loved and I trusted you just like a brother
How did you face my wife, my poor Mother?
Why did you betray me when I needed you most?
I’d have come for you, said Bobby Hester’s ghost
I hung my head, consumed with shame
You’re right, I said. I am to blame
But God forgive me. What could I do?
I was but one in a sea of blue
And, in the end, didn’t we made them pay?
Once we entered, it was judgment day
I know that you died alone and afraid.
Cursing my soul, feeling betrayed.
Trust me, my friend, you weren’t alone
God, how I wish you could have known
There has been no peace for my tortured soul
On all of us, it’s taken its toll
For a mortal sin, there can be no penance
I accept eternal guilt as a fair and just sentence
But I ask you now, as I do God every day
What did we do? For what did we pay?
Why on a winter’s eve in 1983
Did God turn his back on Memphis Tennessee?
We were but boys in blue who believed in each other
Our strength, our confidence came from one another
In the age of innocence, how could we have known
That Memphis’s finest would abandon their own?